5th, and last grade, in his elementary school this coming summer. For a couple of years I have known that I’d want to homeschool my son when he was ready for middle school. The time is quickly approaching and I have my work cut out for me, researching curriculum, support groups, and educating myself in the great world of homeschooling.
Part of me wants to take this whole remaining year to prepare myself and get organized. Another part of me wants to just dive right in and begin homeschooling this coming school year. Thankfully, my husband is in complete agreement of homeschooling and I am grateful for his support.
As I begin my journey, here are some of my fears:
1.) Am I making the right choice and is God really calling me to do this?
2.) What if I can’t handle the stress?
3.) What if my son hates it?
4.) What if I can’t do a good job?
5.) What if I can’t afford it?
The more facts and resources I come across, the more certain I become that I am making the right choice. Not only have I found that a higher percentage of homeschooled students go to college, but they also outperform public schooled students in social skills, academics, and testing, regardless of their parents’ careers, or their teaching credentials (or lack thereof).
Many are concerned with the possibility of homeschooled children becoming anti-social. It doesn’t have to be so! Homeschooled students can be involved in their own communities, volunteering, joining sports and other activities, and learn to socialize with different age groups. There are countless ways to get as much of a social life as we chose. Having a social life does not necessarily consist of knowing or being around many people; rather, it is the ability to communicate effectively, and respectfully, with a variety of people.
I don’t need to put needless pressure on myself. I am not a teacher; I have a degree in culinary arts. The two are not even close! But I love reading, writing, studying, planning, and most importantly, I love my son. I will do everything I can to provide him with what
he needs, and trust God to give me more of His unending grace when I need it. I do believe He’s leading me to homeschool. I can no longer justify my sending my son to a public school where God is left out, and indoctrination is masqueraded as education. I must do my part to take our families back.
I am aware there will be tough days and I will want to quit. I am aware that the emotional challenges I have faced in the past might be unleashed as the stress levels go up. But I am determined to stay connected to my Savior. I believe His Word; I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Philippians 4:13).
I believe my son’s eternal salvation is worth the sacrifice and investment. Time will fly by and I know I won’t regret it. Although no one can guarantee us our children won’t backslide, my trust is in the Lord. He loves our children more than we ever could. I resolve to do my part; I trust God to do His.
I believe my son will love it. He’s excited about it and that brings me joy. If I believe God is calling me to do this, then I also must believe He will provide the funds necessary to proceed.
As my journey begins, I am also faced with the feelings of not being enough of a good mother already. Why would I want to add homeschooling to my list of failures? I must not forget though- if God is in this, it will not fail.
All glory to God, forever. Thank you for
joining me as I begin my journey.