The famous world evangelist, Billy Graham, faced tremendous doubt for years before fully being delivered from his painful doubts of the Word of God. The journey was difficult, but he undoubtedly came out stronger, by the grace of God. Many can be the reasons that cause us grief in our walk with God. Doubt and uncertainty are two big ones.
Have you ever felt you've reached the end of yourself and know that either God intervenes, or you'll lose your mind and walk away?
*Sigh* Yes, sweet refining flames. We can allow ourselves to be consumed and refined, or burned out and lost. Many of us choose the latter. Even so, we are never alone. God is not far away- never. For those who truly seek Him, those that belong to Him, God is ever present and aware of our anguish. His "silence" is deafening to us, though, and if we, by listen to our feelings, numbness, or doubts, drift away by not nurturing our spirits with His Word, we prolong the process and leave ourselves vulnerable to the enemy. Will we ever grow tired of making choices based solely on feelings? Lord, help us!
I contemplated the power of a river as it follows its marked path to its destination.
I remember one day when I was a child, my uncle fell in the river when trying to measure its depth (my dad and uncle had made a bet). The river was not much deeper than one foot and yet there went my uncle, dragged by this mighty force. He managed to get out and many of us had a good laugh. There is no denying its strength. Rivers are fierce. Their flow is unforgiving as it yields to gravity toward its destination. Some of its attributes remind me of our walk with God and God Himself.
- Strong and steady
- Adjusts to the rocks and any kind of detour by making a way around/through it.
-When it hits a rock, it doesn't stop; it keeps going because it knows where it needs to go and goes with its force and determined boldness.
Are we subconsciously letting something stop the flow? May it not be so! We should repent quickly of such faithlessness and continue to hold on to God's promises, walking in obedience. May we never use our struggles as an excuse to live without God.
No matter what our feelings pull us toward or away from, let's make sure we don't escape this river of faith. Allow the flow to carry you through the path that was already set for you. Regardless of the circumstances, trust that the Source of that power and current, knows exactly where you're going and He has it all under His control. He is fierce and mighty! Even more so than the river itself.
See the sweetness in the agony; there is no better place to be in a time of distress, than at the feet of the Savior. Doubts, fears, stress, craziness, and all. He loves you and wants it all. Not because he likes our state of mind, but because He knows if you'll let Him, He can make something beautiful out of it. If it costs us all that we have and are, let's obey and be faithful to Him. There is freedom in surrendering. Rest in Him!