Uncertainty, fear, depression, and an overwhelming feeling of incompleteness shatters the lives of many people- inwardly. Externally, we carry on and suffer silently, comparing ourselves to others, wondering what might be wrong with us.
No, never assume.
Being in ministry, I have often wondered if I would feel more accomplished or important if I would get a full time job instead of being in ministry full time. Is my sacrifice worth it? Will I ever see the fruit? Yet, none of that is of my concern. I have no business wondering about the fruit. My job is to obey God, share the Gospel of Jesus Christ; His
job is to make of it what He wills, to send other laborers to water what I planted or to harvest what I watered. The fruit is God’s business. The work is mine, as He orders it.
But some may wonder, “Am I not entitled to make a better life for myself and my family?” The world owes us nothing. God owes us nothing. To have a sense of entitlement means we have not completely abandoned ourselves. Some may be called to riches and help those in need, while some may be called to the fields. Either way, we work together, not losing sight of what matters most.
The storms of life will not cease while there is still breath in our earthly bodies. It is possible to face them and remain at peace because Jesus provides it. However, some people may find it difficult to cope with multiple storms or deeper struggles such as depression, anxiety, and –dare I say it- unbelief. As believers, we dare not even speak of
such things sometimes for fear of seeming un-Christian even to ourselves! In public, we may say all the right things, but in the privacy of our bedroom (or bathroom), we either fall apart or wonder how a numbness so great can even exist, that we want to feel pain somehow, in some way, that we may be able to cry. How can we be so empty, so desolate, and not cry? Oh, the indescribable numbness!
Struggle can come from different circumstances; the cure comes from Jesus. We know it, but we sometimes don’t surrender to it.
How sweet it sounds when we read “Be still and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10), but we struggle to do it.
How brave we might feel when we read “…in this world you will have tribulation, but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world” (John 16:33), but we act surprised and/or offended by the devil when we are attacked.
Dear one, your Father adores you and you are not alone. If you are struggling within, experience the freedom of confession. Confess to God of any unbelief and confide in a brother or sister in Christ, whom you trust. Healing is for you because God is for you. We can experience peace in the midst of a storm, whether it is external due to a situation, or internal, due to emotional struggles. Jesus is our Anchor. Though we may feel the pounding of the waves, and the coldness of the waters, the Anchor keeps us safe and He is not going anywhere, so neither are we. Remain in Him. Trust Him- truly, wholly, totally, fully, undeniably, thoroughly, completely, trust in Him.